wala akong gana.

Today was like any other day. Like any other Philo class. Like any other Public Management class. The weather however was cool. The sun didn't show up the whole day. We had a 2 hour break before the Guidance Testing. My friends ate and had their usual loud conversation about things. My friend talked to us about the UAAp tickets. This woud normally excite me because I really love the thrill and excitement of watching our team place live at Araneta. What made it more fun is the company of my friends. I imagine them cheering their lungs out. Rb cheering for Chris Tiu and saying ang sarap sarap mo. kidding. But, I didn;t feel the usual excitement and enthusiasm i use to have whenever we plan on watching the UAAP. I mustered a smile but it felt so fake to me. I pretended to be interested. But the truth is that my mind is preoccupied with nothing. I ate my siomai. It was really delicious and so I bought another one. The weather was cool but I still drank a mango shake. I was seated at the far end of the table. I can barely hear their conversation because of the noise in the cafeteria. I overheard them chatting about their ates in medschool. I had nothing to do. I feel weak and lazy. I decided to put my head down and take a nap but I wasn't sleepy. And so I decided to just do my assignment in eco. When it was time for us to go, luckily im done with my assignment, we packed our stuff and crossed to the other building. On our way my friends commented that I was too quiet. I never knew they would notice it. I was having a hard time acting normal that day. They guess that Alvin and I had a quarrel to which I replied no with a smile. And joked hindi, kasi hindi kami naguusap. I guess I am realy getting tired of all the arguments, misunderstandings, pains, and tears. Maybe this time I should really let go. I dont really know. I haven't felt like this before. I think. Tomorrow I will do a report for my IR class, as of tonight I haven't finished reading the article nor have i thought about anything regarding my report. I just feel weak. tired. sad. quiet.